Okay, I give up. You are indeed, the victor, oh wretched universe.
You have cornered me in the depths of sleepless academic hell and
pummeled my sanity senseless. WHY!?
It's indeed in times like these that I become conveniently existential.
Classes are meaningless, walking is meaningless, eating is meaningless, everything is meaningless...even meaningless is meaningless.
I'm so tired of feeling tired and I feel it constantly --
amazing, the power of a couple more hours of sleep at night.
While my painful existence continues, there is that tiny, minuscule, muted
voice within (I call it, "mini pep-talk Tiffany") saying, "DON'T GIVE UP YOU
LAZY WENCH. WHAT ARE YOU, A LAZY?" (Okay, so she's more degrading
than edifying)
Well, I pretty much stifled that voice when I decided to drop
the fourth class I was so sure that I could handle. I just can't. I crumble under
pressure, especially artistic pressure. I have not dropped it yet, but today's class
confirmed it for me. When my Nirvana-loving, pony-tail wearing, completely uninspiring
and unhelpful drawing instructor strolled into class 20 minutes late while we had all woken
up at 6 in the AM, I wondered what I could have possibly done in a past life to deserve such punishment. He then proceeded to berate my barely realized ideas and told me to "engage myself." Unfortunately for him, I'm not of marrying age, nor am I in any way asexual. And as for the other definition of the word that he most likely meant, how the hell does one engage oneself when one is not given any sort of direction? I mean come on, I felt like a foot soldier being sent off to artistic war with a squirtgun and a box of milk duds. As much as I enjoy milk duds and hate the feeling of caramel stuck to my teeth, I'm sure I would die.
I really really want a Cadbury fruit & nut bar right about now.
Frick.
Aww...I'm sorry that that one class is super annoying. It's probably a good thing you are dropping it. It's better to do well in few than poor in many, although it is hypocritical of me to advise you in that way since I never do that myself. Overall, don't worry. You aren't a lazy. You're just trying to be efficient, yes?
ReplyDeleteaw tchen. while i don't know the artistic pressure you've been under, i do know the stress of classes and all around busy-ness. i think i'm gonna drop my 4th class too. lol. i haven't yet but yeah.. i think i'm gonna.
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